It is so comforting to have a teacher or someone who you look up to and learn from. Who encourages, guides, and supports your progress. It is so comforting to be part of a like-minded community that validates your journey.
However . . .
If you REALLY want to jump naked into infinity, there will inevitably come a point where you are guided to leave the known, unshackle yourself from anything you previously followed or studied, wave farewell to your previous guides/teachers/gurus/coaches, and leave home, to the terrifyingly beautiful unknown.
The unknown is the only thing powerful enough to dissolve what you think you know, and in the humility of the unknown, the universe sings.
This is what happened to me. I was safe and cozy under the protective umbrella of a particular spiritual understanding, with a friendly community, a teacher, and indeed, an income from sharing that understanding.
Now, here is the deal.. . . .
The understanding I was in preached about ‘finding the wisdom within’ and ‘going beyond your teacher’ and ‘following your own intuition,’ but when I actually did that, it led me away from the teachers/structure/community of the understanding I was in, to the teacher-less, structure-less, community-less, understanding-less-ness of my heart.
When you ‘grow’ (when you know less) a philosophy/teaching/understanding that was once like a comfortable, loose fitting jacket can become like an uncomfortable straitjacket. To breathe, unfettered, it has to be shrugged off, and in the dropping of ‘structures,’ ‘knowns,’ and ‘truths’ comes the reintroduction of the heart.
In the heart, galaxies rotate, and universes breathe. Everything in creation was itself replicated at different orders of magnitude and within the ‘nothing that the essence isn’t’, was the pre-existing essence of love ‘life-ing.’
As I swapped my physical teachers for this essence, it communicated with me via the non-verbal sensations in my body; it spoke to me via messages interwoven in movies, via the movement of nature, via encounters and synchronistic experiences. The teacher became life itself.
The ‘knowing’ that can only come from the unknown is an emergent sensation and direction that often leads you to do terrifying things like leave a stable job or end a long-term relationship that is safe but, deep down, not right for you.
It can cleave your so-called friends away from you and destroy a life you may have spent decades building. It is scary shit . . .
However destruction is the opposite polarity to creation. The same power is at opposite ends of ONE polarity. Seeming ‘destruction’ is love making a space for something that is more ‘you.’
If you are truly serious about your own expansion, follow your heart into the unknown, into the heart of all-that-is. Where you live and what you do may have a gritty re-alignment, but you are aligning with that which is always present: love.
Finally, in love at last, you let the love lead you, live you. and love through you, and when this happens, you realize love IS ‘you’ and has always been the answer right in front of your nose.
From my nose to yours- BIG love! Rudi
